The crossing
who are you when no one is watching?
A twelve-week closed men's group. Online. A return to yourself, done from wherever you stand.
The next circle begins Oct 6 ‘26
You've been holding it together for so long you forgot what it feels like to actually be okay.
Not performing okay. Not managing. Not white-knuckling through another week hoping something shifts.
Actually okay.
You're at a crossroads. Maybe the relationship ended. Maybe the job did. Maybe both. Maybe it’s the quiet hum of noticing that somewhere between building the life you were supposed to want and living inside it, you lost the thread back to yourself.
You've read the books. You might have a therapist. You provide. You show up. You do the things a man is supposed to do.
And still, something in you knows this isn't it.
That's not a crisis. That's a calling.
So this is that: your own moment of crossing, brought to where you already are. Twelve weeks with a small circle of men. No performance. No fixing. Just the work of coming back to yourself, done alongside men doing the same.
You go in as one man. You come back as another.
this is for you if…
You're at a crossroads and some part of you knows this is an invitation, not just a disaster.
You have everything on paper and feel nothing underneath it.
You've read the books. You know the language. You can explain your patterns better than anyone. And nothing has moved.
You can intellectualize anything, including your own pain.
You want to feel something real again.
the shape
Twelve weeks. One circle. Eight men.
We meet once a week, ninety minutes, same night every week, on video. Between the calls, you practice — in your body, in your breath, in life.
The twelve weeks move through three crossings:
Phase 1 — The Crossing of Self
You've been moving so fast, for so long, that you've never stopped long enough to ask what you actually feel. What you actually want. What you've been carrying that was never yours to carry.
This phase slows you down. Deliberately. You journal. You sit. You practice being with your own experience instead of immediately escaping it. You’ll go through a dopamine detox, which you will use to clear enough static so you can finally hear the signal underneath.
This is where you start to make contact with yourself again.
Phase 2 — The Crossing of Other
Once a man can be with himself, he can actually be with other people.
This phase opens into relationship. You build a practice here. Not a ritual you perform because someone told you to, but a living relationship with something that holds you when you stop trying to hold everything yourself.
This is where the loneliness starts to lift. Not because it's fixed, but because you stop being alone with it.
Phase 3 — The Crossing of Source
This is the return.
Not back to the life you left — back into the world as a different man. Grounded enough to act from something real instead of from fear or obligation or the need to be seen.
By week 11, you will have made a crossing specifically created for you by the groups conscience. By week 12, you will declare who you now are. A declaration. This is who I am. This is what I'm here for. This is how I'm going to live.
You’ll experience the power of that firsthand.
this is not for you if…
You want a webinar. A framework. Another set of tools to add to the pile you already understand and don't use.
You want to watch. This is a circle, not an audience. You'll be asked to speak, to be seen, to do real, tangible work. No more hiding now, so if you need time to absorb and think your way through, this won’t be it.
You're looking for information. If that's what you want, buy a book. I even have a few recommendations.
You're looking for a quick fix. A hack. A system that gets you the outcome without the discomfort of actually going through it.
You're in acute crisis: active addiction, mental health emergency, immediate danger. This work requires enough ground under your feet to actually do it.
What’s inside
12 weekly 90-minute video circles Every week, the same nine of us will gather. We will practice together. We will share and be witnessed. This is the spine of the container. You don't miss it.
A private channel between calls The confidential channel is where the life materials between the calls will be processed.
The Shadow Work Course You’ll receive my 10-week shadow work module. You’ll have access to this for a year, so you can start on it whenever you feel ready.
A practice you build and keep By the end of 12 weeks you have a living relationship with your own inner life. A daily practice that's yours.
Discounted access to in-person gatherings During your engagement, you have discounted access to my live events. If the circle calls you into physical space, that door is open.
A crossing curated specifically for you Over our time, each man will receive a gift in the form of a crossing that he will be asked to make. What that is will unfold organically by our second month. This will come through the group conscience, and each man will be guided as much as he needs to make this crossing. This might be the edgiest thing you’ve ever been, but you will also have support that you might not have had your whole life.
The declaration You speak. Out loud. To the circle. This is who I am. This is what I'm here for. Most men have never done this.
next cohort begins oct ‘26.
investment
$1,500. Or three payments of $525.
about me
I'm Ish. I guide men through crossings.
I grew up undocumented in America. Bangladeshi by birth, American by accident, never quite belonging to either. I watched my father get smaller in this country. The sixty-hour weeks. The heart attacks. The rage. The disappearing.
I decided early that wasn't going to be me. So I went looking.
Fifteen years of looking. Vipassana. Vajrayana. Plant medicine. The Sweat Lodge. The Mankind Project. Shipibo and Andean apprenticeships. Freemasonry. The School of Lost Borders. Relationship and ruptures. A near-death experience that rearranged my understanding of what matters.
I don't guide from having arrived. I guide from having gone in and come back out — the descent, the grief, the years of performing a life instead of living it, and the long work of finding my way back.
The men I work with don't need me to fix them. They need someone who won't flinch when they finally say the true thing.
That's what I bring.
The door is open.
Once you pay, you’ll receive an application. The application takes ten minutes. The next circle begins Oct 6 ‘26.